it just is.....

I actually titled this post yesterday a.m., but never was able to ramble on about it.  Now I forget the "why" I titled it this way, well not really, but stress made me do it...or early Alzheimers caused by stress.

I'm thinking of changing jobs.  Yes, once again this ICU RN is thinking about jumping ship.  I do enjoy the peeps I work with right now, and that is what gets me to hang around longer than I need to at certain clinical jobs, than I need to, like did I just repeat myself or what?   Damn friends at work, anyways!!  :-)  I have a phone interview anytime I wish this weekend with an RN that actually precepted me into the unit way back in the day.  She is a Mgr of IR right at this moment in time.  I'm thinking...hmmmm, either a casual position or maybe a FT position?   Both are on the table.  I remember her as my preceptor.  She definitely was not easy to get along with at that time, but then again I had no big concerns with her.  I also worked with her in the Unit for a few yrs after that.   I just worry, what will she be like if she is my boss.  Like....crap! or hell yes!?? 

Things are a changing somewhat drastically where I'm at right now.  My Mgr is leaving to be a Mgr of a CV unit in our new hospital, which isn't completely built yet.  I'm sure she will be excellent at it.  Tho, I came back to the ICU at her beckoning.  The guy who is replacing her, is a great guy.  Diplomatic, personable, etc.  Tho, I'm really wondering if he is too diplomatic and won't take into consideration his nurses' realities after a said period of time.  We have another supervisor whom I have not worked with, but I have not heard great things about, that is coming to day shift.  I know this person- sorta, but really worry that he is the Bully that everyone states that he is.  I'm thinking 95% of the RNs at nite between IMC/ICU can't be all wrong about him, and now I will have to deal with his tude and possible anal shit.  I am strong, but why should I have to try and even put up with his shit?   I've discovered that I don't have to stay insitu (where I can acquire a malignancy.)   I can move around as a nurse.  After numerous yrs on the unit, trauma, home health, etc.  I think I can manage movement once again.

This has been brewing in my brain for a bit.

I'm sorta bored in my position at this time.  I need to grow and expand.  What to do, what to do?  It's nice being complacent, but I've never been one to hang onto a comfortable place for long. 

Soooo my peeps what is in store for this RN next?  I'm hoping on finding my niche here pretty soon, but if not, I will be off and rambling to different parts of the nursing arenas offered to me once again.