another year....

Well, it's the 1st week of Feb.  I actually like this month more or less.  So far Feb. has not treated me too badly in past years, but then again we are only in our 1st day in 010' here peeps.

A week from today will be my 47th B-Day.  Gawd.....ugh!  Y'know B-Days have always been very relative to me.  No biggie really.  Tho, the bigs ones that were really BIG to me at least were 16 and 21.  Every B-Day between and after was just that, another day.  Yay!  I'm a year older, whatever.  I didn't lose my senses and go beserk when turning 30 and I didn't care about turning 40, not really.  This number tho...hmmm, gets to me more than the other numbers preceding it.  I'm not sure why that is.  Maybe I feel old this year?

My muscles are much more cranky than they used to be in the last 6 months or so, I now have bags and puffiness under my eyes when I wake up in the morning.  No I haven't been partying or sexing it up all nite my peeps.  Tho, that does sound like more fun than going to bed between 8:30-9:30 on most given nites.  So now every morning I trek down to the fridge before spackling my face and I put on some sorta extroadinary miracle roller-ball de-puffing agent under and around my eyes. 

I'm tired...I'm like tired alot!  I wake up tired sometimes, like WTH is up with this nonsense?

Oh, and there's other little odds and ends here and there.  Believe me, I've changed my dietary habits..well I've tried and I must give myself a few pats on the back to say that I'm doing well.  Tho, that hasn't helped my tiredness.  Yes, I'm anemic on/off, I'm not all that great about taking my iron supps, but then again, this tired is different.  I just have been thinking over this last year that my tiredness is more hormonal based than anything else.  What's that you say?  No I'm not menopausal, pre most def for years now, but not true menopause.  Gee, like something else to look forward to, eh?  It reminds me of when I went to my GYN's ofc and his medical assistant (don't ever call these people RNs, k?) stated my age (this past yr), I'm like yep.  She then proceeded to ask the usual, last monthly period, etc.  I told her yeah, I have them, but they are irregular and maybe I'm jumping into menopause? 

She retorted (believe me I hardly use retort, such a strange, succinct word, but it fit) "if you're still bleeding your not menopausal." 

Hey thanks chicki...nice response and good day to you too!

Anyways, I made it through 09' which was a feat in itself.  Another year, and I get to appreciate my family, my great friends, my cuddly/furry cats and life.  So I need to HTFU and get over the 47 age thing and embrace life, cuz really what else is there in this life except for the here and now?  Yep, DO NOT WORRY, STRESS over 47.....repeat, repeat, repeat.......................................