Maui, here the hell I come baby!!

Yeppers, tomorrow we are Maui bound.  I can't wait!  It's not so much the islands or the island I should say, it is just a needed RNR and respite from shit that has been occurring in my life since May 4th that started uncontrolled, and is sorta manageable, but then again...emotions can control alot of shit in my life it seems.  At least in my own head and body.  I really hope to release the demons in my head that plague me in regards to my precious boy, and rest.

As some of you know the beach is my Xanax, it just is my Nirvana and then some.  Not sure why, but it has been that way since I was a teen.  It's funny, cuz when I would go to the beach as a teen I would slather on the baby oil or some low spf sunscreen and cook myself to a ripe mango lets just say.  I mean red mango...like over-ripe mango.  Being somewhat fair-skinned and all, it p'bly wasn't the smartest maneuver, but again I was a teenager.  When are teens very smart in the grand scheme of things?  No don't even answer that one. 

Tho later in life, say late teens/early 20's  (and now) I would always drive to the beach when I was stressed and it never failed to help calm me.  Now I'm asking this maven

 to heal me as well.  There is something very special about the Hawaiian Islands.  Don't ask me what, cuz I can't place it.  Yes, it is tropical.  Yes, the water there is a bluish-green clarity of color that is hard to describe, at times almost iridescent.  Yes, it just is...awesome, beautiful, and calm even with tourists...it is calm. 

It just is, and that is all I need for right now.