wtmw---add on

Work.  Do you realize the word "work" is a 4 letter word?  Hmmm, so is diet, fuck (like in WTF? and fuck you!), hell, cuss (like in the Fantastic Mr. Fox) and math---just an FYI for those who never thought of math as a nasty type of word.

Ok, back to work.  Yep, been there done that a few times in my life.  Did that yesterday to be exact.  Twas a crazy ass morning at work and part of the afternoon as well.  I pretty much had a patient that was waiting for a bed on the "Celestial Floor" and I was open for an admit.  Yep, I was pretty much frickin screwed.  I have to be honest tho, both families I dealt with during the day were absolutely great considering what they were going thru more or less.  Anyhow, as it turned out, my one patient ended up trying to go to heaven as soon as I received my other patient.  How convenient.  Nothing like running back and forth trying to take care of two peeps at one time.  Done this many times before, but not with one dying and one arriving at the same batman time.  Thank God I have some great people I work with.  My peeps at work are the best.  They are there in a heart beat and willing to offer a hand/bod, etc. prn (as needed). 

What was hard in a way, was contacting family for the patient that was checking out of this world.  They had stepped away for a breather and what not.  For the life of me, I could not get a hold of them.  Long story short I did, but I still feel like I let them down in a way.  I know, not my fault.  Tried both numbers, no one answered, messages left, etc.  Tho I knew that they wanted to be present with the patient at the end of his/her life here.  Tried my best, but not good enuf in the long run.   Anyhow, as a nurse I not only take care of my patient (my main goal at all times), but I do take care of family at the same time.  I did give support and the family was very gracious, but all in all I wish I could've done a little xtra for them somehow.  What?  I'm not really sure, but it's just something I go thru from time to time being a nurse and who I am as a person.  Kinda second guessing myself in situations like this. 

Anyhooo, getting back to the 1st part of my post.  As you can tell either peeps that work in the Unit or in a very busy trauma oriented ER need to have some mental combat skills or we would all shrivel up into the nearest corner more times than not.  So we are sarcastic, we are "jadded" or at least act like it sometimes in jest with our fellow coworkers.  We poke fun and have gross and outrageous humor and remarks at times (with each other of course), we also sometimes laugh even when it is inappropriate or it is something gross or ?? 

This is our way of dealing with life, death and work stress.  If I didn't have this outlet during work, I wouldn't be able to continue in the area of nursing that I nurse in right now.  It just "is what it is" in a nice wrapped up package.

Again, a BIG heartfelt thanks to my coworkers.  You guys are DA BOMB!!  Luv ya!  I'm more than happy to get knee deep in the trenches with you, cuz I know you have my back and I will have yours.